Before:
After:
It's not that much, but I'm happy with it. I finished the beard and started Noah's coat (changed the colour to DMC 831 because I thought the contrast between the beard and DMC 832 was not clear enough). The peacock now has a neck. I need to finish the upper part of the stocking before providing the beast and its companion with a body, because I need to scroll down the frame for that. Hopefully by next week ... although I'm not making any promises. Last week was bad, this week was pretty awful and the mere thought of next week gives me spasms. Without wanting to be a terrible bore, here's a short re-cap of what's going on (feel free to skip to the next stitchy pic if you feel so inclined):
Pelle finished his time at the special medical daycare centre he was attending. The end of his period there came with a report that, quite frankly, took my breath away. Of course I knew that he had problems and that things aren't looking that well for him, but this was a very bitter pill to swallow. What it boils down to is that, at nearly five years old, he has the developmental age of a one-year old. I knew this was the verdict, but to see it in writing and illustrated with numerous examples is another matter. I know all you mothers out there will understand that this doesn't have any effect on my love for Pelle. In fact if anything, it has deepened my love and admiration and belief in him, to see how bravely he has fought against everything he has had to deal with, which was more, much more than any child ('normal' or otherwise) should have to go through. He's the sweetest, loveliest boy any parent could ever wish for and (allow me to wax sentimental for a moment here) sometimes his smile and the way he looks at me can actually reduce me to tears from sheer ... well... joy and love. Is there a word to express this? Motherly love, I guess. Anyway, Pelle is now attending a new medical daycare centre, and he's doing remarkably well. He will make it. I know he will.
Also, next week will see the start of the end of divorce proceedings. I have a couple of court dates to look forward to (or should I say dread? Yep, I think that would be more accurate). In the meantime, I'm trying very hard not to lose faith in myself and in everything that I'm doing. I should really be stitching Be True by Little House Needleworks.
Instead, I chose to start another project (yes, another one). But really. Who could resist the new BBD Loose Feathers? I couldn't:
Isn't it perfect and gorgeous and yummy, and so stitchable and small-ish and quick? I bet all of the people who decided not to join the Loose Feathers Club this year are really kicking themselves.
That's it from me. Sorry for the very personal post, but I really needed to share this. Also, I needed to explain why I have been so quiet around Blogland. I'm sure I will catch up with all of your blogs as soon as my life loses its soapy twist. A bit.
Yours distractedly,
Annemarie.
42 comments:
{{Annemarie & Pelle}}
Many, many hugs and good wishes (and prayers) for you and Pelle. With your love and support, he will be fine. I just know it. A mother's love is a very, very strong thing. And starting a new project (or projects) is good therapy for the soul and lifts us up when things are tough. I love your Noah and your BBD piece and look forward to seeing your progress on both of these. Many hugs to both you and Pelle.
New project starts are always fun and always seem to make us all feel better. So that is great.
Your son sounds like a complete joy to you. Don't let anyone take that away from you!
And great to see your progress on CHS. Looking forward to more.
Holding you and Pele in my heart and prayers.
Jan R in Maryland
Just sending loads of virtual {{{{hugs}}} and good thoughts to both you and Pelle. I'm sure he will make it too.
Oh and I'm not kicking myself at all about not joining this year's LF... ;)
Some weeks just seem to be too much to handle, don't they? And then we make it through them and find something to feel good about. Your description of the way Pelle looks at you says it all. That's where the joy is.
Awwww, Annemarie, Pelle will pull through because of you! So sorry that you are carrying such a load right now--I would love to see some good things come your way. Have you ever seen the old, old cartoon (probaby 60s?) of Cinderella, when the little animals are getting Cindy ready for the ball and the bluebirds are tying her ribbons, etc. That's what I want for you--bluebirds and ribbons and bouquets and a smiling sun. Best wishes on dealing with all the suckiness flying your way.
You can do it, yes you can! If anyone can do it, Annemarie can! (Are cheerleaders an international phenomenon? Like in the short skirts and sweaters? Well, that's me. Really it was. I know it's hard to believe. Maybe a photo in the future.)
And you know, I find it very easy to love the "special" child in my life too. There's nothing wrong with love.
Annemarie, my heart goes out to you. I have a special child who has overcome so many things that Dr's have said he'd never do. You're doing everything you should. Just love Pelle the way you do with all of your heart, and you'll never go wrong.
Your progress looks great. Looking forward to your next update.
Melissa
Well Annemarie, my admiration for you just grows every time I read a new post from you. Guess I am behind on things, I wasn't that aware of the difficulties Pelle has had (sometimes I'm just so clueless). Anyway, I just think he's got the best mother in the whole world...and so many people around the world that love you both. Including me!
Big hugs to you dear one....
xoxo
Annemarie, you hang in there girlie! There are lots of us out there cheering for you & Pelle. Sending you hugs and positive vibes!
Please don't apologize for being "so personal" in your post. I admire your honesty and strength. This makes me treasure our friendship even more.
Oh, I admire your wonderful stitching too!
Oh, An, my heart is aching for you as you face the facts of Pelle's diagnosis and more court proceedings. Know you'll be in my thoughts and prayers. I know you'll come through stronger and will have much wisdom to share.
My heart goes out to you. I had a sister that was a special child. Tomorrow is a new day. Hugs to you!
Oh Annemarie, I do admire you for the way you cope with everything - Pelle really has the most wonderful mother.
I am extremely envious that you already started the new Loose Feathers, mine is still en route to me. I signed up as soon as I saw the first photo! Not a moment of hesitation!
Lieve Annemarie,
First of all a big hug for you and your dear Pelle. I have been fortunate enough to meet him and think he is such a darling little boy and a true joy to know.
I'm sorry you have to go through these trying times but so happy that cross-stitching can bring such comfort.
Will be with you in spirit as you go through the awful court proceedings.
Hugs, Margaret
Knowing and see it in writing are two different things... But Pelle will grow on your love, that's the most important seed in his life.
Good luck with everything you're going through right now. It must be difficult, I hope you have enough important others to help you with all of this.
Love the BB desigsn, I'm almost kicking myself... but the monthly stockings are on my wish-list too!
Words cannot express the depth of your love that you have shown toward Pelle. He struggles, but shall overcome, because of his Mother's faith in him and her ability to fight for him. I understand the love you speak of and I understand the shock of setbacks and things you don't want to hear. I have a little boy that struggles too, but his Mama fights for him too. It looks bleak now, but it will one day look up.
I hope that the procedings go smoothly and that you can set one obstacle behind you. Smile An, even if you don't feel like, for the sun will surely shine again soon for you...my thoughts and hugs are with you....
Hope the divorce goes through smoothly. I hope that like I experienced once it is completed you will find a great weight lifted from your shoulders.
Nobody readibg your blog can doubt your love for Pele and IO'm sure i jopin many others in wishing for the best possible outcome for him.
As ever your stiching is gorgeous.
Why apologise for a new start, it's a hobby not a job, so stitch as the whim takes you and enjoy!!
((((((((((((((Annemarie and Pelle)))))))) No words can express it, but know that I am cheering for you and Pelle. The fact that Pelle has challenges doesn't diminish at all how wonderful he is, and how much he means to you. He is blessed to have you fighting for him.
Love your progress pics! I say, if you want to work on something new, go for it. It's a hobby, something to make you happy and relax. Go with what works.
((((Hugs for your both)))) Pelle will be great you see - he's got a great mum, thats why.
{{Annemarie & Pelle}}. With your love and determination Pelle will be just like his namesake. He will have the hand of g-d with him always and your love as a mother can do miraculous things. All my Love and good vibes heading your way. You will feel so much better after the divorce is over. Lots and lots of Love Patti xxx
Dear Annemarie, your Pelle is indeed a precious gift from God and sent to you special because you will love him unconditionally...forever:)
Sending you both hugs and best wishes for all the happiness in your lives!
Oh, gosh, Annemarie. I wish I could give you a hug. What a load of it you've had to wade through!! You know they're idiots - Pelle is a wonder and a marvel and I'll stand right up there and tell them so. I know how horrible divorce proceedings are, but it'll begin to get better once it's legal. (Slowly, but at least it will get better.)
I'll see you the day after tomorrow, and I hope the day will do loads to cheer you.
I am excited doubly now dear Annemarie as I can really give you the hug I want to give when I see you tomorrow. I am up early while Jos sleeps making chocolate truffels. Is that a cheerful thought? Chocolate is always cheerful. I have been fortunate enough to meet little Pella and see you and he together. Have faith...he will make it with a mother like you behind him! Just get this divorce behind you and you will find you can see more brightly afterwards!
See you tomorrow...
Hugs en groetjes ~
Heidi
P.S. ~ Were my directions to my house clear as mud?
Awww big hugs to you and Pelle. I do feel for you. Love your new start and your wip and am amazed you are able to do any stitching at all with everything going on. xx
You are so right - it is motherly love. You can see what a sweet individual Pelle is from the pictures of him you have shown. With the love and care you give to each other how could anything happen that wouldn't be good? Hugs to both of you and my best wishes that things do work out for the best. As for the court dates, have faith in yourself and remember who you are.
On the stitching front I love your Noah stocking. Doesn't he have the most wonderful face and beard? I love the new Loose Feathers series too! Yours looks lovely!
{{{{Annemarie & Pelle}}}} I hope that the court proceedings go as painlessly as possible.
Lovely progress and a great new start
Sending hugs and positive thoughts your way, Annemarie. God's blessings to you during your journey with Pelle and in helping you through your divorce.
I love your Noah stocking - love that beard although I can't say I loved stitching it so much. I also love your new BBD start.
Peace,
Terri
Annemarie, I cannot imagine how difficult this is for you. I am glad Pelle is doing well in his new daycare. Lots of good thoughts for you as you close the door on your marriage and look forward.
Love all your projects :-).
{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}
Annemarie, I cannot imagine how difficult this is for you. I am glad Pelle is doing well in his new daycare. Lots of good thoughts for you as you close the door on your marriage and look forward.
Love all your projects :-).
{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}
You and Pelle are in my thoughts, he's going to do well because he has the best mother. Stay strong for both of you.
Mary Eman
Anneamrie, I know you and sweet little Pelle only through your blog. But I know that your son will make it. He will go from strength to strength because he has the most important thing in life - love and support from you. It will be difficult but he will make it. I'll be sending you good thoughts.
Pelle is fortunate to have such a strong Mum - you will both pull through ok!
You're tempting me with the new start... but I must resist and finish the other BBD first!
"He will make it. I know he will." That, dear Annemarie, is exactly WHY your wonderful son will live a very happy, healthy, contented, and lovely life. Because you say so. You just simply rock my world with your ability to stay the course. Please know that there are literally hundreds (if not thousands) of us standing firmly behind you with nothing but love and good wishes in our hearts for you and Pelle. You might not recognize us because we've never met...but we're right here. In the words of Erica Jong: "Goddess Keep and Goddess Bless." Woo Hoo!
Gentle hugs and prayers being sent your way. I can just feel your love and pride for your Pelle - what a beautiful post! I'm sorry for your troubles - bury yourself in your stitches - sometimes it helps!
Annemarie - you have a wonderful son who in turn has a wonderful mother! I wish you all the best for the forthcoming court dates
[[[hugs to you both]]]
Oh Ann - what a load you continue to bear.
Pelle will come through this with a heart full of love and a wide smile. Any time you see photos of him the love and joy for the world around him shows through. With you as his Mom, he will advance more than those stupid doctors can even imagine.
I hope that ugly divorce is over soon and your ex can drop into the deepest darkest sea and out of your life. Sorry, I couldn't resist.
Many hugs and much love from my home to yours.
Annemarie, Pelle is a blessed little boy because he has the best mama! His struggles will always be lessened by your love and support. Though it is hard to hear things like that-he will come into his own with your help and guidance.
Love the new start and nice progress on your CHS stocking.
What a lucky little boy Pelle is to have such a loving and caring Mother. He will thrive on this no doubt at all.
Don't forget to take care of yourself as well. He needs you and so do we out here.
All the best to you both!
Your stitching is coming along nicely!
Hugs and Groetjes uit Canada!
Annemarie I am late in leaving a comment as I really didn't know what to say apart from my heart goes out to you . I think Pelle is going to be able to overcome more than you might dare to think and it will all be down to the fact he has such a great Mum.
I hope things are not too horrendous in the courts something has got to go your way and VERY soon !!
I hope you are feeling better health wise
take care (((((hugs))))) to you both and I am thinking of you
Dearest Annemarie,
I don't know what to say other than your post make me cry and yes, it is a mother's love that is so constant and strong and something beyond ourselves that can be the wings for our children no matter the odds. I will say a prayer tonight for Pelle and you as this news must have rocked your world...as if other things in the course of your life didn't shake it up enough! God never gives us more than we can bear even when we wish he would lighten up on us!! He knows you are THE Mother for Pelle and a blessing you are for each other.
I'm thinking of you and sending you a BIG hug from across this world to your cozy home,
Tanya
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